Family

Four Years Ago Today:

Caelie accidentally put my hair on Daddy

Four years ago today I had already been dealing with some weird health stuff for over a year. Today I saw my doctor and she's putting in a referral for me to talk to someone about having my uterus removed.

Tim has always known he only wanted two children. I have never been convinced that I was really done. My body is really bad at a lot of stuff, but it's really really good at making babies. But I hit 33 and things got weirder and harder to deal with. Now I'm like so done with having a uterus.

I'm so done, that mentally I don't even have one anymore. Like all that's left to do is get a doctor to physically do the job. Also, we haven't had to change a diaper or wake up at odd hours to feed anyone for such a LONG time. And, these girls are so old that I can go do what I want without worrying about car seats and babysitters and so many other weird little things that were my whole existence at one point.

I actually kinda dig my current existence. Just, you know, not the uterus parts. That I could do without.