I've spent more of my life with repressed emotions than in any other state of being. And this is NOT the first time I've tried to wake everything up and process through/ heal old wounds. I've worked really hard to wake up this particular wound. I think the thing that surprises me is how deep it is. Who knew I had so much stuff hiding in here!
It's like a flood pouring out of me and I'm helpless to stop it. And why would I want to? I know what it's like to carry repressed grief around and it's not good. I wanted to let all of this out in the hope that there's something better on the other side of it. Classic example of be careful what you wish for.
Today was a good day for connecting with people. It was more intense than I expected. Being able to see human faces and hear their voices is so important and how cool is it that we live in a time where we can get that without the germs?
I was able to get back into some of my routines, but not others. That's normal life. Maybe tonight I'll get more than 3 hours sleep. One day at a time.
I totally forgot to take a picture of that zebra square.
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